Gong Xi Fa Cai

Gong Xi Fa Cai. Its chinese new year, the dog year. Well wish that this year can get alot of ang bao so can 1st clear my debts, 2nd to fly again and buy new cloths. This monday had a photoshot in SPH for Hang Ten. It will be publish on the new papers on 10 Febuary i guess. All thanks to wee teck for giving me the chance. Well to shoot was rather some intimate photos that i took with a quite pretty gal. Hmm i have not hug a gal for a long time since the last broke off last year bring me very fresh memories of my past. So was rather nervous when i took the photos with her. Then i can feel that shiver that is in her lolx.

Dam i am grounded for chinese new year. So stress up with alot of summitions ahead for me and its killing. Further more i have been working on copic markers everyday, doing my rendering... Going to die of copic marker posioning... I have been spending lots and lots on money on design, buying copic markers and papers too. i am so broke. got to sell my arse soon... Hai. Happy Chinese new year to everyone out there Hugs

Its time to celebrate

This post is suppose to be posted on the 14 of JANUARY
Well celebrated our family member's birthday. some of them did not celebrate their birthday, due to what have happen for the last few week. Everyone got back to their lives, trying to forget the unpleasent past. A total of 5 of them celebrated their birthday, my grandma and the 4 of my aunt. Well the whole day i was playing with the kids. They are adoreble , innocent and so cheerful. How i wish that i can be like them. nothing to worry of and just play all they want. Hmmm got them sparkers from NTUC.it was dam expensive for 2 dollars there was only 18 pieces. But i guess it was worth it after seeing them playing so happily. Took care of samuel the most. haha can see this guy like me. K then paid that cake, 8 of us got to pay 16 dollars for the cake.man... i am going to be broke

Back to life

It have been raining all these while. On Saturday Choon Wei, Xuan De , Yi Siang and Me were at Pulau Ubin. It was raining all this while. Yi Xiang and I reached ubin first,so was riped off while geting the bikes. Choon wei and gang got each bike at a dollar cheaper each. The rain stoped for a while. Thank goodness the tie was low when we reach chek Jawa, then we were able to see some of the wetland organism. Choon Wei had a fall and he bleed quite a lot. Tried to get back but it rained very very heavily.

Was ask to stay back with them for lunch but was in a rush. As usual I jump of the bump boat and ran to the market to get my Changi village Nasi Lemak. Than rush down to Tanjong Pagar to meet up with project mates. Went into URA to look around for our culure & expression. Went to Maxwell market to eat later. Was surprise that the food was good over there.

I had a hard time getting to the bus stop, the whole Ee Tong Seng St was block due to the lighting up Festival of Chinese New Year. So I have to walk a few bus stops ahead, to Brass Basar to buy my paper for my Rendering.

Later Went to National Library but did not find the book that I wanted. Went to toa Payoh to get some books of rendering, pick up lee hom’s new album, got my granny tao sa bun and got myself strawberry ice-scream.

Sobz I bought 4D 0568 comes out 8560… I did’t know what is eye-bet if not I will win 10 K…

Let it go

The last thing that I got Yi Boh was 3 Lillis, 5 roses, 6 mini daises and 2 purple bells. That is what I got her before she was laid to rest in Lim Chu Kang on No.568. That morning was very emotional. As I don want to see so much upset in the place I went out to get some flowers. They open the coffin, and place some more things into the coffin, all her children who where there put in 1 their watches and some soft toys inside. That was to accompany her on her journey so that there will be something for her to remember her sons.

When I am back I laid it on her coffin, Than 3rd Yi Boh’s her daughter ,Yin Jie Jie, sorrowly told her mum in Cantonese” dennis got you some flowers, the flowers r so beautiful”. At then there is nothing I can do but burst into tears and weep.

There was a prayer session for yi boh before they close the coffin. It was a very very bitter depart my 4th Yi Boh was mourning , she said in Cantonese “ Elder sister, I have been 73 years of sister with you, now I will have to say bye to you, I will miss you every time”. Yin jie say that she will miss her cooking and her company .Never seen something like this before in my life before, again I weep after seeing them close the coffin.

Sent her on her last journey to Lim Chu Kang where she is laid to rest. Before the buial we sang her amazing grace. Later everyone was given a flower. We thrown in the flower and the black patch which we worn into the pit. All her children thanked her for taking care of them ,asked her to rest in peace and good bye.

After all I was supper pissed of the child who disown his mum. He said this to his mom, if there will to be a day that she dies, he will be there only for 10 minutes, and yes he did it. If he ever want to fight for the mother’s will I swear this at him ”If you don want your mother you should not take her money”. Periods.

Took care of ah ma( my grandmother) after the funeral at home, I can see that she is upset but she is remaining strong as the eldest in the family . Had a nevertheless, it was an upsetting day, but I can remember most of the time, I was trying to play with the kids to prevent myself from crying. After everything I remember I fell to some kind of deep sleep.

This song on this blog is specially dedicated to her, its called let it go by Corrine may, I wish this song could then let her anger and pain go and let it be. I guess she is happy now up there smiling, watching us once we have got over it. I believe that one day I will be still able to call her yi boh face to face.

A tribute to my Yi Boh

Mdm Loo Sow Kwai age 73, leaving behind 1 daughter, 3 sons and 2 grand children. Her life was rather tough and hard for her. She don have a complete growth of her hand so she had one other hand smaller. During her middle age she divorced with her husband who swindered her money. Then she raise all her children to very successful people.2 business man, 1 teacher, 1 professor. She spent most of her life time as a bus driver. At then she was the oldest female bus driver at the age of 70. She disown her youngest son as he is with a lady 12 years older than her. Just 3 months ago she was diogonise with stomach cancer and now it have taken her life. On all her life time she have been earning hard for her kids, save up half a million, but she was not able to use it before she left.

In the picture u can see the toys that she made out of the beads, she have made a thousand of them spend most of her free time making them. Now she is gone, everyone miss her very very much.
I will remember her as a very cheerful and young at heart lady, who gave me bus rides when I was in primary school. I was quite close to her when I was living in my fourth aunts place. She always give me very meanful taughts of life.

I was glad that she accepted Christ before she died, may she rest in peace. She will be dearly missed by all of us. Her food she cook, her principle of life, her chats with me and her unique way of calling my name “denni”.

Bad Year Ahead

Never had such a bad starting of the year.
On 1st of January
-Drunk and did foolish things at adrians place.
-Caused a number of upset for my manager
-Short cash in the cashier
-Worst of all My 3rd grand aunt who I always called her Yi Boh passed away

It was all of the sudden that I woke up early in the morning finding myself at adrian’s place then. Went to the toilet to relieve myself than felt this very drowsy situation, so I was knock out in the toilet. It was so bad that I work up his whole family. I released that I was someone was knocking on the door very hard, Then use my hand to flip the release then knock it up wards again. Was given a cold shower than felt awake, thinking why was I in Adrian’s place, felt extremely embarrassed so I left but fell down on the floor a few times.

Went to work trying to be professional n kept myself busy doing work, but I don know y out of the blue my tears will roll without feeling that it did. Got into trouble a few time forgetting this n that.

Thank goodness there was choon wei to visit me. Once I reach back home, don have the key back home. Was wandering where on earth was everyone, until when I call my brother, my brother told me that devastating new of my grand aunt passed away.
Never was I so shock in my life before, almost fainted but choon wei grabed me.

When to the pallor with cw accompanying me. Cried quite bitterly when I saw her in the coffin resting so blissfully. What I was more sad about was actually that she became so skinny, she is not the yi boh I used to see. I can see that she had gone through a lot of pain. So hurt to see her like this.

Was more hurting when I see all my family members so sad never before. Especially my grandmother and her sisters were all over there. Most of them were strong in their heart but i can fell the sorrow that they r in. It was the atmosphere which bring me very very down.

That night None of the sisters when back home, they stayed together with each other, as This will be their last few days spending time together with my 3rd yi boh. Being able to see her for the last few times through the coffin makes me want to remember how she looks like.

When it was late at night, I cried even more thinking the days when she is around. I will go into details when I am going to have a trubite post for her. I wet my bed that night. I miss my days with jesus.

I m back

After so much i have enough .
I am going to make a come back.
so now this is how i look like

for then.Life is so misirable. so many things happen.2006 is going to be hell for me. i am so sick of thing feeling like so many things happen. Going to make a shout out saying i m not that so str8 after all. Sobz