Let it go

The last thing that I got Yi Boh was 3 Lillis, 5 roses, 6 mini daises and 2 purple bells. That is what I got her before she was laid to rest in Lim Chu Kang on No.568. That morning was very emotional. As I don want to see so much upset in the place I went out to get some flowers. They open the coffin, and place some more things into the coffin, all her children who where there put in 1 their watches and some soft toys inside. That was to accompany her on her journey so that there will be something for her to remember her sons.

When I am back I laid it on her coffin, Than 3rd Yi Boh’s her daughter ,Yin Jie Jie, sorrowly told her mum in Cantonese” dennis got you some flowers, the flowers r so beautiful”. At then there is nothing I can do but burst into tears and weep.

There was a prayer session for yi boh before they close the coffin. It was a very very bitter depart my 4th Yi Boh was mourning , she said in Cantonese “ Elder sister, I have been 73 years of sister with you, now I will have to say bye to you, I will miss you every time”. Yin jie say that she will miss her cooking and her company .Never seen something like this before in my life before, again I weep after seeing them close the coffin.

Sent her on her last journey to Lim Chu Kang where she is laid to rest. Before the buial we sang her amazing grace. Later everyone was given a flower. We thrown in the flower and the black patch which we worn into the pit. All her children thanked her for taking care of them ,asked her to rest in peace and good bye.

After all I was supper pissed of the child who disown his mum. He said this to his mom, if there will to be a day that she dies, he will be there only for 10 minutes, and yes he did it. If he ever want to fight for the mother’s will I swear this at him ”If you don want your mother you should not take her money”. Periods.

Took care of ah ma( my grandmother) after the funeral at home, I can see that she is upset but she is remaining strong as the eldest in the family . Had a nevertheless, it was an upsetting day, but I can remember most of the time, I was trying to play with the kids to prevent myself from crying. After everything I remember I fell to some kind of deep sleep.

This song on this blog is specially dedicated to her, its called let it go by Corrine may, I wish this song could then let her anger and pain go and let it be. I guess she is happy now up there smiling, watching us once we have got over it. I believe that one day I will be still able to call her yi boh face to face.