Cool? Nah....


Some pic that i taken of my self.
See guys it always happen like this,i can't get the person that i want to be with . Neither i can't be with the person who like me. Okie this is a little confusing, but it there anyone that u can find that really love each other? Okie a 23 year old gal confested her love for me.

She feel that i am a person on the cold site, but if someone were to know me from the inside. They will find that i am a warm n intresting person. Well to be honest i did considered cuz i prefer to be with some 1 that is mature.

buts again love is not somthing that can be built over night. I am not trying to imply that i like some1 else. there is some1 in my mind but its the distance that is seperating us. Lets hope somthing work out.

Like on Saturday nite i saw Yuki on the train with her bf. i did't say hi cuz just don wana disturb them, but just a strange feeling in my heart jelious or envey? hmmm maybe both.I know there r alot of people having this concern on me. i really wana thank them. but i have been leting most of them down.

I told my mum yesterday that i wana drop out of my polytechnic and go into hairdressing. I guess it somthing that i will like. Than i had a hell out of it. Dams trying to fix my life....

Getting back to normal

Tryin to put back the pieces of my life.
Life is like a maze in which you try to avoid the exit.
I am quiet stress....
Tired.
Exaused.

Back to Square

Its Horrible.... Qi yuan now is u. Another person who is leaving me. That person that u like restrict u from going out with me... Sad this is now so ugly. I don know y this is happening to me again and again. everyone is like leaving me. Its was raining yesterday in the bus n i was weeping at the back seats of the bus. Its like so cold, i juz can't share my problems with anyone.
i felt that who the hell will understand me? Its like i only have share with Qi Yuan, but now qi yuan is being lock up.....

I guess i will have better luck in Short hair. i felt like i just want to shave my hair back to the normal dennis i use to know, n its also 1 way i can repay my mistake. Darms. wander how i will look.

Normal Day

Okie it was some sunday i was doing house keeping all these while. Just Prepaing for the Lessons in school, More for house keeping today.dam felt so guilty this morning i played steven out. was suppose to chat with him at 8 am. Dam.... Sorry.

Great Camp

Wowz Temesek Design school have the best school Sprit award!!!!

K i was having this camp for the last 3 days.We went to Sentosa on the first day but there was not much fun. The first day was Awfull, there were some spoilers in the camp .I reliase there r many bitches around the school. N the guys there r so gay or wierd.

i was sharing my sleeping bag with Rong Wei, when i herd Randall n Some st pat's guy screamed "hay don touch me" , " can you make more space for us" ....They did get touchy .Dots. Out of the blue guys will compliment u," hey u look sexy".... This are the guys in Design Schoool.

Lots of Guys cross dress that day for the performence nite, it was horrible but funny. Last day was the D day, we really unite as a school to compete with the other schools. lolx i was cross dressed for the games. Dots what is going on...It was quite Horrible for us because design school is so small & we r competing with business... We lost though but we still got the best sprit school cup.

This is Year 1 Temesek Students INtake 2005
Engineering 1400
Business 1000
IT 600
Applied Science 500
Design 360

Only those who r in green r my friends.

First Day of POly

Okie i really don know what to u when i work up in the morning. Its like the longest time that i spent in the toilet geting dress up for school.I reach there rather early, n i m quite early....N periods i don know anyone. there was no one from beatty.

K got into this group call"Titian" ,meet this munch of noisy ppl Caleb,Rei and Randall. K everyone is so fake... i was having a social struggle, everyone is with they special topics about annimae n i was like sorry wrong channel.

I was Even ask to Course Dress.. Qi Yuan Said Str8 no fot that. or else i am going to be condam.

Very mEssed up Again

okie the first time that i type this entry was when i was chating with steven
K here goes i am very mess up and i have not been replying my smses. sorry i am very messed up n i don know how to reply.And its cuz of 2 ppl. A Guy n a Gal

The guy makes me very guilty for ruining his life.
The gal just can't let me give her an answer.

Here the story goes, hope to seek advices:

There is this gal that i know since i was secondary 1.
at then i did't dare to express my feelings for her.
When i was about to do that on my birthday.
2 of her best friends came up to me n tell me not to express to her.
This is because they say that she said i am not her type of guy.
So then we still remain as good friends and even best friends.
During our secondary 3 lives, we have been busy with our studies
Then she got herself a boyfriend.

I have to admit that i love her but as a friend.

Loving her, was like caring for her, hope that everything is fine, as long she is happy and i can be there when she needs me or a hearing ear.
Years later she broke up with her boyfriend.
Now she ask me to start a relationship with her n if i still have feelings for her
And she told me the pass about her feelings for me.
As more past was dig up, i am more depress n lost.
She also ask if i can change my personality for her, and she is wiling to wait.
THE ENDED
I am having mixed feelings. i think most likly i have to turn her down. this is because its hard to change my personality, it will either take a very long time or i will return back to square.

k saying about other things. i am training up now at the cali gym and getting prepared for my poly to starts. Get getting a little excited. :) hurry n cheers its a wander i will get a 1000 plus kisses

Sweet People Ard mE

Kenny do take care of yourself. Thanks so much for ya book. That is real real sweet of you to get it for me. Kenny do take care of ya self in HK and when u r in China. i Have been there and there r alot of cheaters there.

k just was in the gym in the morning, did alort of wierd exercise. Just felt quiet lonely. Same as usual in Funan, I was rather shock that only Ayu and Eric r the mangers left in the outlet. suppose to have 3 manager but now with two.

I accompany Jian Kai for a hair cut at reds. Spend quite a long time catching up with him, well sounds he had more problems that he is willing to share. Went back to my outlet to have dinner, just then sub pass me a book which is from Alex(kenny). At then i was really really touch, i am n i am really am.

My Blood Test result is comming out soon. than its then how am i gonna know y i have a slow growth. n i am still waiting for alot of ppl to go online especially Steven. Miss his chats.

Claire of course i did remember you, n i will never forget about u. i got to make it clear that i am not gay. glups. lolx. just a number of bad accidents for the month.

Dear friends, u may be far away from me, but if u chat with me anywhere i just felt u r just next to me. Thank u

Building Up?

K on sat Spent About 3 hours at califonia gym, i was rather suprise that they say my body is very easy to train. Thanks To Elton for the two weeks trial thingi. Everyone look so AJ in the Gym, including me. hahaz. I WANA TRAIN ON MY APS

Later i we went for luch at Yuni Yuki, n have a buffet. Just keep eating, i think i am growing up. And then Brought a $110 microwave,which i called my bro to share half. ITs like dam heavy i was like caring 20kg around its like dam heavy.

Dam.... i am so shock to hear things from Li Jun. Still quite lost though. Steven ya to poor lab top, dams i miss chat with u....Grins

Alex aka kenny, u r a very sincire person. Pls take care when u leave for Hong Kong. Keep In touch. Finally can write somthing happy:)

I Surrender

Perhaps i am born with bad hair. Promise to get it cut real soon. its getting out of hands, and its serious.Everyone just ask me to cut.

K mainly today i was so happy because i no need to go to work.
but many things cork up for me. Just imgine me leaving my key outside of the door for 2 hours when i was not at home.

Here goes, i traveled back to Toa Payoh from kovan which was about 45 min, to change into new cloths in blastier. The weather was real real bad,because there was a storm. when i reach the door step of blastier i just can't find my key.So what i did was that i took a taxi n rush back to KOVAN.

Just at my door step i was like phew no 1 open the door n theykey was still there, but i still gave a sign of relieve to find nothing missing in the house. At first i was suppose to meet Li Jun At suntech City. but. ya i got to change the place n meet her 2 hours later at Toa Payoh Central but felt very very bad about it.

Haha i don really like walking around Toa Payoh Central cuz there r alot of Ex school mates there. They Will give u this stare like looking at a strange monster. K but most of them r our school gals. haha was about to tell them sorry i am Gay. LOLx. i n li jun laugh abt it.

Left li to Uti to pick up her ex than i just went home to prepare for the dinner at SAFRA. MY aunt is a poor driver, don really know her way even we have the rite dirrection so we spent 15 mins on the road aimlessly finding the club.

Every thing was good that nite, the food especially. Burbs i was a little drunk then.

My Bro, My aunt N ME

My big Family

Should I Drag?

OMG ... more n more ppl says that i look very gal gal. Have i pi-cha-ed? I don know... I am in intense preasure to Cut my hair.Dots .....Jeremy, i taught its i am just n innocent broom. n there u go. but was still glad to chat with ya online.

Gosh last nite some1 call me up at 2 am, n its was some friend form malaysia. Than Qi Yuan Was like so sick, talking to a dead person.

I am still waiting for some ppl to come online back wana chat with them...

OMG I AM So Girlish

One After the OTher

Hmmm... many of u guy may feel that my blog is 1 of the saddest blog u have ever seen but this is how sad my life is, for most of my encounters. Alex hope that your life will be better after leaving singapore, i guess u need a change of enviroment. There r too many sex craver in singapore.

Mei Ling our Outlet manager had left for causeway point. Now Irin is leaving for suntec city.I was like so lost the whole day when i hear this. Next i guess is Ayu. This is two out of the 3 mangers i serve have left. Got to adapt to new Managers.

At times i really wana quit mu chuan n Pasta cuz of different reason, but i am really need of cash. Okie u ppl out there given a choice btw money n happiness which 1 will u want? This is me i need cash n happiness.

Yesterday i was trying to protect Jie Hao form the yellings from Vicent. N yes jie hao no matter is your group singing that day. So what vicent if u r the boss u have to understand ur feelings of your singers.

Steven ya driving me everywhere on the msn:P Hugs!

Ah Chew.....bad flu

I declare a War on All Gay uncles, pls i just wana tell them to look at the mirror(Even it will break). Disgesting old jerks who r old enough to custrate them self. Smile at me like some hungry wolf which did't eat for billions of years. Saying about disgusting topics, freaking me out.

Reason y i am anti gay auncles is cuz there was a few that force to get numbers from me, n i still blurly gave. In the end i was the one who suffer they call u, want to go out with u, wana be friends. pls. stop those dirty tricks. Save it for the aunties or grannys.

still confused over some things i don know y, seems that i have to be firm what i want. Know this very sweet, nice, sincire person Alex. he had seen my blog n thanks for that. I enjoyed what ever we chat.

Thanks Elton for ur invitation for ur two weeks califonia GYM.thats nice of ya.
ppl says that i m indepent. i guess i am not. this is because i still want to remain childish, don really want to grow up. i am a bitich? Slut? hahaz what ever. i am a slow typer hope not to offend anyone.

N yes i have off my phone for a month to filter those auncles, i am considering to change my number too.
Think i have hurt choon wei,i am strip off by work. Qi Yuan sorry hor was juz giving u a dirty joke of a 3some. lolx. don take it too seriously. n i will not be a 3 party. I am quite sick now, i guess it should be the weather. Hope to get well soon, thanks for the worries n concern friends, cheers~