Dream On

Work up this morning and waited around for steven to go online. Mean while i was busy with the screws , nails n hammer. i was sort of noisy n got screwed for waking up my parents early in the morning. But i was very satisfied with the out come of the room. Never seen such a need room before.

I am going to sent this Photo for the Lorel Feria Man Hunt, they just say sent in a photo n they will do a selection . Its a competion that they will select the top 9 and they will do a make over.Top prize is 1000 dollars cash.. I lack this confidence... arz...
haha dreaming on.

So proud of my room

Tired....

Was actually sick on friday, its a very long week, i never had such a long 1 ever since last year. there is so many things to do. From geting my assignment done to doing presentation.There was hardly any time even to go for a toilet break.

Today i went to taka, shop alone n went over to Ikea to get some things. Roamed at there about 3 hours of shopping.Spent a total of $100. For 4 of this items. 2Lights 1 Trash Bin n a store box.

Went over to Dome to visit yuki at her work place n had coffee. Dams every thing in there was expensive. Spent $5 on a coffee.

Gave Interview to someone made from china, but i guess he is the cannot make it type. He worked b4 in WHY NOT (found out its a gay bar).Dots mans, but i guess he is a slacker, he say he is short of cash, n he only can work on weekday but not weekends because he needs to go out with his friends. Wei ling also agreed with me.


4 things i brought

Harsh Week

I guess i am gonna be a very long week for me again. I wish i can give up work for the time being. I think i am getting some trouble soon.

Guess what happen yesterday when i was in the gents. I was adjusting my hair when 1 guy open the door. He Stared as he face me on the mirror. he was sort of shock and took a foot back n look at the door sign. Than he walk in.. Hey that was insulting

Do i really look like a girl? My manager stress i should cut my hair as its misleading.
When over to Di's home to do work. Her House look Great, looks like she have a loving family so nice :).

Waiting for some ppl online just waiting on haha

I am a Zombee

I felt so sorry for my self, for not blogging for the last 1 week. I have been working for the last 5 days n i felt that i have no life. Shool's working is so crazy, they r pilling up and they are almost able to bury me to my grave.

Things r really turning better within friends, there r some friends that r worth while to cheerish.
I will have to Update my blog. its so packed. i need to breath .I NEED a new phone n i am waiting for the launch of this
N90

Considering this phone too...but its common.
N6260

Yes i may smile 4ever but it Don mean i M happy

Well i have not blog recentlly. Still trying to sove some house keeping matters.
1. Need to get a computer and broadband at jalan rama rama.
2. A new handphone
3. Finish my home work

My good auncle of mine promise that he will help me fix my old com.He kept it for 2 months n he did't touch it. Gosh n he return to me yesterday, looks like i have to DIY n sent it for repair.

I need to get a new hp, its getting on my nerves... i can't stand it. I am like using the oldest phone in Poly,yes its 1 way to keep up to the time. N next month there will be alot of release of new phones . I wander shall i get 1 now.Yesterday Choon wei n i was roaming around orchard,

on friday had lunch with yuki, she is a japanese chinese. wow she is a awesome gal, she have a very very simillar back ground like me. But i felt so sorry for her, her background is so much complicated. She is now working to support herself. Admire girls who r independent n brave no matter what happens. But overall i felt that she is a must make friend.

ppl have been complimenting that i look jap. given the choice of looks n hight, i will head for hight. need to grow in order to be an air steward.

I have pilled up my home work n its not healthy. i think i got to get moving.
Me & Yuki

Refresh Orientation "MODELS" 

Traveled Alone Again

Work up in 7am in the morning than had a quick breakfast n rushed to the bus stop n went over to Bugis n took a 1h15 mins bumpy bus ride to Johor. I felt rather lucky that it was smooth traffic towards johor and there was a short Que.I am very particular my stamping of my passport, i will always request the counter stuff to chop on a page according to date.So it will be much easier to back track the days i travel.
Well people may think that i m crazy to travel to Malaysia Alone to cut my hair.
3 reasons i go over:
1.The stylist is real professional
2.They Charge more cheaper over there
3.The results r really great
Spent about an Hour in City Square to go some quick shopping and just rush back to school. Some things in dams the whole ride took me 2 hours form Johor back to temesek poly. Lucky i was not late. Things change for the better, i am able to click with my friends in School.:)

Smooth Sail

I guess i have over spent for the last 2 weeks i guess i have spent about 800 dollars. Those were on T-shirts, Design Equiptments and stationary. Well it can't be help i am now a tertiary student, things have been expensive. I was so happy when i got my Student Bus Pass, which can help me save a little money and i can there will be no travelling restrictions.YEAH!

I went through an interview for the student ambassadors in the school on friday, well was quite gald that i was choosen. However they stress they will have to cut my hair if it gets too long. so i was rather freaked up.

never Have been thinking about the negetive stuffs these days, things turn possitive, start making nice friends, Denise, Jasline, Yuki, Yuan Ling, Rongwei,plus plus. Was quite happy that i made more female friends, cuz i will always stick with a bunch of guys, n people will mistaken me of being gay.Though i have a few friend who r gay.

Read some bogs this morning,i just don understand y people cannot be faithfull to their relationship. Its like u have partner n u go on a night stand with some1 else, maybe much more better looking?.Next NEVER B in a relationship cuz u wana spent the money of the other party. NEVER do that or i am gonna call u a cheap SLUT n i am not gonna talk to u i am also gonna look down on ya.

I have been trying to Dig some old songs from my CD collection, NSYCH, A1 , Yuki. I wander if u did that before but it will bring back some memories of your past. Those were the times....

Long day

I spent about 3 hours telling my tuition teacher,Jie hao my problems that i have been experiencing for the last few years. He have been a good listener.by then it was about 3 am when we finish talking n i just roamed about tanjong Pagar for the next three hours for the first train to Changi Air port to sent LiJun off to beijing....

i am filled with envy for here, so lucky can travel overseas now. till today i m still travel stressed, i want to leave singapore for the time being.I WANT TO TRAVEL!!!

Cool? Nah....


Some pic that i taken of my self.
See guys it always happen like this,i can't get the person that i want to be with . Neither i can't be with the person who like me. Okie this is a little confusing, but it there anyone that u can find that really love each other? Okie a 23 year old gal confested her love for me.

She feel that i am a person on the cold site, but if someone were to know me from the inside. They will find that i am a warm n intresting person. Well to be honest i did considered cuz i prefer to be with some 1 that is mature.

buts again love is not somthing that can be built over night. I am not trying to imply that i like some1 else. there is some1 in my mind but its the distance that is seperating us. Lets hope somthing work out.

Like on Saturday nite i saw Yuki on the train with her bf. i did't say hi cuz just don wana disturb them, but just a strange feeling in my heart jelious or envey? hmmm maybe both.I know there r alot of people having this concern on me. i really wana thank them. but i have been leting most of them down.

I told my mum yesterday that i wana drop out of my polytechnic and go into hairdressing. I guess it somthing that i will like. Than i had a hell out of it. Dams trying to fix my life....

Getting back to normal

Tryin to put back the pieces of my life.
Life is like a maze in which you try to avoid the exit.
I am quiet stress....
Tired.
Exaused.

Back to Square

Its Horrible.... Qi yuan now is u. Another person who is leaving me. That person that u like restrict u from going out with me... Sad this is now so ugly. I don know y this is happening to me again and again. everyone is like leaving me. Its was raining yesterday in the bus n i was weeping at the back seats of the bus. Its like so cold, i juz can't share my problems with anyone.
i felt that who the hell will understand me? Its like i only have share with Qi Yuan, but now qi yuan is being lock up.....

I guess i will have better luck in Short hair. i felt like i just want to shave my hair back to the normal dennis i use to know, n its also 1 way i can repay my mistake. Darms. wander how i will look.

Normal Day

Okie it was some sunday i was doing house keeping all these while. Just Prepaing for the Lessons in school, More for house keeping today.dam felt so guilty this morning i played steven out. was suppose to chat with him at 8 am. Dam.... Sorry.

Great Camp

Wowz Temesek Design school have the best school Sprit award!!!!

K i was having this camp for the last 3 days.We went to Sentosa on the first day but there was not much fun. The first day was Awfull, there were some spoilers in the camp .I reliase there r many bitches around the school. N the guys there r so gay or wierd.

i was sharing my sleeping bag with Rong Wei, when i herd Randall n Some st pat's guy screamed "hay don touch me" , " can you make more space for us" ....They did get touchy .Dots. Out of the blue guys will compliment u," hey u look sexy".... This are the guys in Design Schoool.

Lots of Guys cross dress that day for the performence nite, it was horrible but funny. Last day was the D day, we really unite as a school to compete with the other schools. lolx i was cross dressed for the games. Dots what is going on...It was quite Horrible for us because design school is so small & we r competing with business... We lost though but we still got the best sprit school cup.

This is Year 1 Temesek Students INtake 2005
Engineering 1400
Business 1000
IT 600
Applied Science 500
Design 360

Only those who r in green r my friends.

First Day of POly

Okie i really don know what to u when i work up in the morning. Its like the longest time that i spent in the toilet geting dress up for school.I reach there rather early, n i m quite early....N periods i don know anyone. there was no one from beatty.

K got into this group call"Titian" ,meet this munch of noisy ppl Caleb,Rei and Randall. K everyone is so fake... i was having a social struggle, everyone is with they special topics about annimae n i was like sorry wrong channel.

I was Even ask to Course Dress.. Qi Yuan Said Str8 no fot that. or else i am going to be condam.

Very mEssed up Again

okie the first time that i type this entry was when i was chating with steven
K here goes i am very mess up and i have not been replying my smses. sorry i am very messed up n i don know how to reply.And its cuz of 2 ppl. A Guy n a Gal

The guy makes me very guilty for ruining his life.
The gal just can't let me give her an answer.

Here the story goes, hope to seek advices:

There is this gal that i know since i was secondary 1.
at then i did't dare to express my feelings for her.
When i was about to do that on my birthday.
2 of her best friends came up to me n tell me not to express to her.
This is because they say that she said i am not her type of guy.
So then we still remain as good friends and even best friends.
During our secondary 3 lives, we have been busy with our studies
Then she got herself a boyfriend.

I have to admit that i love her but as a friend.

Loving her, was like caring for her, hope that everything is fine, as long she is happy and i can be there when she needs me or a hearing ear.
Years later she broke up with her boyfriend.
Now she ask me to start a relationship with her n if i still have feelings for her
And she told me the pass about her feelings for me.
As more past was dig up, i am more depress n lost.
She also ask if i can change my personality for her, and she is wiling to wait.
THE ENDED
I am having mixed feelings. i think most likly i have to turn her down. this is because its hard to change my personality, it will either take a very long time or i will return back to square.

k saying about other things. i am training up now at the cali gym and getting prepared for my poly to starts. Get getting a little excited. :) hurry n cheers its a wander i will get a 1000 plus kisses

Sweet People Ard mE

Kenny do take care of yourself. Thanks so much for ya book. That is real real sweet of you to get it for me. Kenny do take care of ya self in HK and when u r in China. i Have been there and there r alot of cheaters there.

k just was in the gym in the morning, did alort of wierd exercise. Just felt quiet lonely. Same as usual in Funan, I was rather shock that only Ayu and Eric r the mangers left in the outlet. suppose to have 3 manager but now with two.

I accompany Jian Kai for a hair cut at reds. Spend quite a long time catching up with him, well sounds he had more problems that he is willing to share. Went back to my outlet to have dinner, just then sub pass me a book which is from Alex(kenny). At then i was really really touch, i am n i am really am.

My Blood Test result is comming out soon. than its then how am i gonna know y i have a slow growth. n i am still waiting for alot of ppl to go online especially Steven. Miss his chats.

Claire of course i did remember you, n i will never forget about u. i got to make it clear that i am not gay. glups. lolx. just a number of bad accidents for the month.

Dear friends, u may be far away from me, but if u chat with me anywhere i just felt u r just next to me. Thank u

Building Up?

K on sat Spent About 3 hours at califonia gym, i was rather suprise that they say my body is very easy to train. Thanks To Elton for the two weeks trial thingi. Everyone look so AJ in the Gym, including me. hahaz. I WANA TRAIN ON MY APS

Later i we went for luch at Yuni Yuki, n have a buffet. Just keep eating, i think i am growing up. And then Brought a $110 microwave,which i called my bro to share half. ITs like dam heavy i was like caring 20kg around its like dam heavy.

Dam.... i am so shock to hear things from Li Jun. Still quite lost though. Steven ya to poor lab top, dams i miss chat with u....Grins

Alex aka kenny, u r a very sincire person. Pls take care when u leave for Hong Kong. Keep In touch. Finally can write somthing happy:)

I Surrender

Perhaps i am born with bad hair. Promise to get it cut real soon. its getting out of hands, and its serious.Everyone just ask me to cut.

K mainly today i was so happy because i no need to go to work.
but many things cork up for me. Just imgine me leaving my key outside of the door for 2 hours when i was not at home.

Here goes, i traveled back to Toa Payoh from kovan which was about 45 min, to change into new cloths in blastier. The weather was real real bad,because there was a storm. when i reach the door step of blastier i just can't find my key.So what i did was that i took a taxi n rush back to KOVAN.

Just at my door step i was like phew no 1 open the door n theykey was still there, but i still gave a sign of relieve to find nothing missing in the house. At first i was suppose to meet Li Jun At suntech City. but. ya i got to change the place n meet her 2 hours later at Toa Payoh Central but felt very very bad about it.

Haha i don really like walking around Toa Payoh Central cuz there r alot of Ex school mates there. They Will give u this stare like looking at a strange monster. K but most of them r our school gals. haha was about to tell them sorry i am Gay. LOLx. i n li jun laugh abt it.

Left li to Uti to pick up her ex than i just went home to prepare for the dinner at SAFRA. MY aunt is a poor driver, don really know her way even we have the rite dirrection so we spent 15 mins on the road aimlessly finding the club.

Every thing was good that nite, the food especially. Burbs i was a little drunk then.

My Bro, My aunt N ME